Punctured kidney...

Finally, everything has went past... I've spent 5 days in the hospital... was admitted into the hospital on monday evening... and they punctured my kidney with the nephrostomy tube on tuesday morning... it was really painful when they inserted the tube into my body... pain~ and i've been resting in the hospital for the next 2 days and friday morning my biopsy was being taken from my lymph nodes... i will have to admit into the hospital next week again to insert another stand into my kidney so that i will not be carrying an urine bag around... and this is where the suspence comes in cuz i need to wait for the results to be out for the lymph nodes... pray hard... that it is just some fluid that is not harmful in it... please God...

Point of no return...

I've finally done my ct scan on monday... and i've got the results on tuesday... First when i was into the consultation room, the doctor showed me my ct scan... It shows that my lymph nodes has enlarged from 5.9cm to 7.4cm... All these while i've been thinking... Would there be any miracle happen to me? Well, i've got the answer... It's NONE~! It was a terrible thing to see my lymph nodes are getting bigger and bigger... And it is actually sitting on the tube from my kidney to my bladder and it blocks the urine going thru... It's swollen at my kidney... So the doctor told me the only way is to do a biopsy on the lymph nodes and then put a needle on my kidney so that it would release the urine out from my kidney directly... I was totally break down... It's like i've been thru so many things and now i have to face it all over again... Chemotherapy... Surgery... and now, additional urine bag until the lump sitting on my tube disappear... Oh God, if i do have a choice, can You please guide me? I've enough with all these sufferings... What are they supposed to do with me? Is it my karma from the past? I really don't know... Anyone who came thru my blog can you please pray for me? I know i might be a bit too much asking for this but i really hope by this way it will help me... God, please save my life... Bring me out from suffering... Bring me away from all my sickness... Amen...