Torturing... why must it be like this again?!

I've been going thru all the check ups every now and then... past one month plus, i've been going in and out of the hospital for check ups and follow ups... Yet, the doctor called me another day after i received the call in march... Daniel, can you please come to the hospital again for some opinions? I was like... What is it going on again?! "Your CT scan shows that there are enlargement of lymph nodes... We are trying to get you some opinions on dissecting the lymph nodes out..." "What?!" "Yeah, so can you please come on that day of appointment?" "Okay fine... I'll come..." When i went there the other day, the oncologist told me that my lymph nodes need to be removed out... There are 6 doctors in there, including 2 oncologists, 2 urologists, and 2 surgeons... 1 of the oncologist insisted me to operate it out, where the other 5 said that it is a very major surgery... "Dr. Christina, you look at the CT scan of this guy here... The lymph nodes are wrapping on his aorta... If we are going to remove it, the surgery will be very massive and high risk..." After I heard this, i was like... OMG... Why is this going to happen again and again? Why can't this thing end just like that? Fine... So they told me that they will inform me again to give me another opinion on that... Finally they called up and asked me to see the urologist... And the urologist said he need to consult another surgeon on this matter... So finally, today i went for another opinion... I was waiting in the hospital for 4 hours to get to see the doctor... "Hi Daniel, do you know why i called you to come today?" "Duh, to see what can you do on me..." "Yeah, basically we need to operate your lymph nodes as they are enlarged... But it is too risky as the measurements are really big... So i asked Dr. Christina to get an opinion of the head of oncologist of the WHO and see whether can we do another course of chemotherapy on you or not... If he said yes, then it will be great... So hopefully this chemotherapy will reduce its size..." "AGAIN?!" "Yeah, I dun wan you to risk your life like this... Your lymph nodes are wrapping on your aorta, if we're going to remove it, it will be a massive surgery... So I will let you know again when i've got the opinion... Is that ok?" "What else i can do?" I was thinking to myself... Could anyone tell me what can i do?! I'm really out of ideas...